Spring fever hits hard for me nearly every year. Temperatures creep up, flowers bloom, and the siren song wafts around my head. I find myself itching to impulsively book a flight to some exotic locale and live the life of perpetual vacation – no budget, no work, just simply fun. Yet no vacation is happening anytime soon. Decisions must still be made about how to stretch the budget just a little bit further. Children still have to be disciplined and cared for. Cleaning and laundry are apparently infinite.
I’m not sure how much thinking ahead the Hebrews did before being rescued from slavery in Egypt. Perhaps in their zeal to escape their masters, living “happily ever after” was the furthest they got in envisioning the future. Walking in a hot sandy desert might not have crossed their minds. While their shoes did not wear out and their food was supplied for them, it wasn’t quite the comfortable life they desired. Rather than gazing at the cloud and flame that led them onward, their discontent tugged for attention.
And the rabble who were among them had greedy desires; and also the sons of Israel wept again and said, ‘Who will give us meat to eat? We remember the fish we used to eat free in Egypt, the cucumbers and the melons and the leeks and the garlic, but now our appetite is gone. There is nothing at all to look at except this manna.’ (Numbers 11:4-6)
…’Would that we had died in the land of Egypt! Or would that we had died in this wilderness! And why is the LORD bringing us into this land, to fall by the sword? Our wives and our little ones will become plunder; would it not be better for us to return to Egypt?’ (Numbers 14:2-3, NASB)
And the people of God spoke against God and Moses, ‘Why have you brought us up out of Egypt to die in the wilderness? For there is no food and no water, and we loathe this miserable food.’ (Numbers 21:5)
When the duties of life are less then how I’ve dreamed it, I must take care not to look back. The concerns of the world must not cause me to long for Egypt. There is a grave danger in dwelling on those discontents too long.
Take care, brethren, lest there should be in any one of you an evil, unbelieving hear, in falling away from the living God. (Hebrews 3:12)
When the doubts creep in…”Raising children is not a smart investment”…”Staying at home has ruined any chance of earning a meaningful income” …”You could have been somebody”, I need to cling to the promises of God. My worth will never be dependent upon what I do. Treasures in heaven will not be destroyed. Laying down one’s life is not a waste of life. Looking to Christ and resting in Him alone must be where I focus:
Let your character be free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He himself has said, ‘I will never desert you, nor will I ever forsake you,’ so that we confidently say, ‘The LORD is my helper, I will not be afraid. What shall man do to me?’ (Hebrews 13:5-6)
-all Scripture references are from the NASB-
photo credit: “Sahara” by John Y. Can